my last picture of nana millie

on sunday july 22 jan texted me in the night to say that nana had gone to hospital. we all flew up to see her on monday. we went straight to the hospital. jan had forewarned that she wasn't looking her best with an oxygen mask covering her face. i wasn't surprised to see that she was still so spirited and occassionally laughing with us, in spite of the fact that her body was slowly shutting down. nana had had a massive heartache - one from which she would not recover.

on july 25 at 1325 my beloved (our beloved) nana millie died. there is a void... there is an emptiness that no-one else can begin to fill... i am only occassionally sad that she has died, but that is more the shock that she actually did. we always knew she would, but in nana's case i didn't think she should.

we held nana's hand and spoke to her softly as she died. i am so pleased that we got to spend every last second with her.

i just wish my last photo of her was one with carlo, oskar, alex, nana and me. but perhaps that is an image i can create for myself. as i will always feel her love around us.